Meekness is not Weakness

This past Wednesday I had a wonderful class at church. Pastor DD did an amazing teaching on honor and what it looks like. She brought up so many things that I had never thought of. Meekness is not Weakness was one things she talked about. Meek is not what one thinks it means, it actually means someone who has strength. It is how you use that strength is important. A woman can be meek and strong all at the same time. She can receive correction with humble heart and be strong because of her willingness to be humble. She can be strong for her children but at the same time be soft about it. She can share her beliefs in a kind and loving way; and not back down. This is not about having power or see who she can control. It is about giving herself to God; letting God be the Father, the husband, and the source of refuge. What a wonderful promise we have in God. I pray daily that I remember his promise and that I reflect his life in mine. Blessings to you and may God's peace be with you.

Lonely heart

So, the other day I was driving home and started feeling sorry for myself. You know the single mom bit was on my mind. I was being selfish and crying out to God about not having a husband. Even though I know that God has everything covered and is in control. Also, that what I was doing was being self focused. I just to be honest did not want to listen. I just wanted a good cry. A good cry that would not get me anywhere but a stuffed nose and red eyes. God being the amazing and patient God woke me up at about 2:30ish in the morning and very clearly said " I am wanting you to want me like you want a husband. Iam wanting you to have the desperation for me. The one who knows the plans that I have for you." I immediately repented and thanked God for all that he has done for me. For the healing he has done and the provision he has provided. Next time I cry out to God for a husband it will be with a thankful heart that he is mine.

Gods' heart

On facebook I had posted in my status Lord break my heart for what break yours and give me the wisdom to understand it. A friend responded Wow! you are brave and I hope God gives you blessings. Well, to be truthful Iam really not that brave I just want a understanding of what God wants, his desires and what hurts him. I know that is alot to ask for but I feel in order to have a better of understanding of the call on my life that God has for me. I need to get it. I mean how can I reach out if I dont get it? How can I help someone in need if I dont get it? For some people this is easy stuff or you might say no brainer stuff. For me it comes alittle bit harder so my prayer for people out in this big scary world like me is for God to help us get it. I probaly should add a boldness in faith to share God's word along with that. So, heavenly father hear our prayer that we have an understanding of what breaks your heart and give the wisdom to understand it. Give us an boldness of faith to carry that out. Be understanding with us as we try to upgrade ourselves while we reach out. Thank you for all the forgivness you do and know that we truly and honestly want to be what you called us to be. Amen

Icescraper...

One day last summer I was cleaning out my van and came across my icescraper. I threw it away thinking that I would get another one when winter its. Well, basically I was taking advantage of something as simple as a $2.50 icescraper. Along with that I was not being wise with my money. I know you are thinking it is only $2.50 whats the deal? Well... winter came and I was trying to be diligent with my money and would not break down and buy a icescraper. The weird thing I would by a $2.75 white chocolate mocha without blinking an eye. I was on my way to get a coffee and the Lord spoke to me "How can I help you with your finances when you wont help yourself?" Wow that was powerful to me. Yup you guessed no coffee that day. Iam still in need of a icescraper and everytime I went to buy one the Lord said "no". I have been using a broken melted down spatula to clean the ice of my van windows. Telling myself I just need to break down and buy one. Then the Lord who is always faithful and forgiving {I have bought some coffee since that morning he talked to me.} provided a icescraper for me. My credit union was having a grand-opening event and one could win a prize . I won a car pack which include a c.d holder, tire gauge, sunglassed holder, sun shade, and yup a icescraper!! The Lord is so good he made me realize not to take advantage of things that I have and to be wise with my money. To be thankful for the little stuff and to take care of the things that he provides. In thinking back I can see a the little and big things that God has done for me and my family we are truly blessed.