Lonely heart

So, the other day I was driving home and started feeling sorry for myself. You know the single mom bit was on my mind. I was being selfish and crying out to God about not having a husband. Even though I know that God has everything covered and is in control. Also, that what I was doing was being self focused. I just to be honest did not want to listen. I just wanted a good cry. A good cry that would not get me anywhere but a stuffed nose and red eyes. God being the amazing and patient God woke me up at about 2:30ish in the morning and very clearly said " I am wanting you to want me like you want a husband. Iam wanting you to have the desperation for me. The one who knows the plans that I have for you." I immediately repented and thanked God for all that he has done for me. For the healing he has done and the provision he has provided. Next time I cry out to God for a husband it will be with a thankful heart that he is mine.